how many of them actually are willing to lend a listening ear ?
none.

when i dont want to say.
u say i wasnt willing to share.
when i wanted to tell u how sad i was.
u wont reply.

humans are contradicting.
all of these will only make me seal myself up more.
lending me a listening ear ?
i doubt.

byes.

i dont want to be alone to face the maze in front of me.
i am not as brave as what you think i am.

save me.

returned.



yeah im back! =) -yexiang

i just loveee some sentences that contain special meanings.
they are just so. hmm.
inspirational ?
lol.

" if i suddenly disppear from your sight one day, please do not worry. Instead, pls believe that i will come back safe and sound. But if i dont, please promise me not to be sad, and carry on the faith and belief that i will always stay beside you till the end. "

the story of love and faith.
sweet.
x)

i wanna eat!
thats the only way i could vent my unhappiness.
BE FAT.

broken pieces of my heart.

the people who used to touch the innermost of me in my heart.
no longer do.

the girl in me who used to be so cheerful and happy go lucky.
no longer exist.

the big rain and dark clouds over my head.
no longer go away.

the tears flowing.
no longer stop.

what the fuck is going on?

nothing matters anymore.
i just wan my old self back.

i wanna recover.
=(

it beats nothing more to see a buddie u really like with a smile on the face.

=))

this isnt what i wan.

to alot of people.
perhaps its only a game.
where we only have fun.
there isnt much to think serious about.
comes and go.
thats a very big misconception.

yah its fake. its unreal. its virtual.
but how about the people who is behind ?
arent they real as well?
they have genuine feelings.

at least to me.
all of them are real.
yet i am seeing them hurting one another.
as though they themselves wont get hurt too.
i am devastated. i guess everyone is.

talked to tiffi until 1+ ytd.
its hard on her.

has everything came to an end ?
before 1 doubt is cleared. another one comes.
same for problems.

when will all of these stop ?

sad.

i just cant control my tears from flowing.
be it the people around me.
or the things happening to me.

someone said.
never ever build 4 walls around your heart.
because once u build them.
probby its very hard to destroy them the next time.

my life is alrite.
its just abit of the same routine everyday.
lonely.

i cried myself to sleep last night.
feel so sad. so bad. so guilty. so worried.
someone in order to see me off safely.
waited for bus 28 for 45mins with me.
the bus took so fcukin long and he isnt feeling well already.
asked him to go home first ler. he refused to.
in the end when i reached home.
my friend called me saying he is in the ambulance.
his head must have ache freakingly bad while waiting.

its all my fault.
feel so bad.
he called me at night telling me he is alright.
but i still cried on the phone.
cried after hanging up.
cried all the way to sleep.

read buubuu liting's blog.
cried again.
we are all tired.
i wanna hug her
=((

breakaway.
i wanna run.
to a place where no one can find me.

drag buubuu along =x
lol.

i dont know. dont know. dont know.
dont ask me.