well.
i guess all of us really want to do something about this.
but the effort,
the determination is so little.

i dont agree with anyone.
because i know all these cant be compared.
and i am also clear, no matter how beautiful the past is,
or how badly we missed it.
it can never happened again.

in fact all of us alredi predicted this after Os.
other then accepting. looks like there is no other way out.
when things turn out like this. no one is to be blamed.
time is a powerful factor.
too powerful it scares me sometimes.

the people we used to think we understand.
we no longer do.
the people we used to know about so much.
we no longer do too.

i finally realised.
some things. no matter how hard we try to salvage.
it just doesnt work.
but i still want to try.

ironical as it seems.
its actually the unspoken words that hurt the most.
or maybe somethings are really better left unspoken.

5 years of friends and a few months of lover.
hey.
this 2 things cant be compared.
we can never take ppl's feelings into comparison.
so. ya.
dont tink too much.

alrites.
got to turn in now.
haiz.
2005.
wad a year.
lolx

today is christmas ! lolx.
and besides receiving presents at the time of the year,
it also marked that 2005 is coming to an end soon.

2005 to alot of us. could be a pretty good year.
because it is a significant year where alot of us in our grp
found the other half.
lolx.

i am happy for them.
because they found their happiness.
i am happy for myself.
because i am single.
=D

but as we realised. the christmas bbq was kind of quiet.
the attendance wasnt full.
and the atmosphere is just not right.
i am not sure of why either.

elmo talked to me last night.
i felt that suddenly we haven been talking for ages.
nevertheless. i am still contented.
once in a while like this isnt a bad idea too.

he told me.
5 year long friends cant even win a partner.
this sentence keep repeating itself in my mind.
haiz.
but i know all these cant be compared anyway.
so i dont really go and care.

SOX.
wads really SOX ?
seriously speaking. i duno.

arh well. i am juz abit emotional nowadays.
hope that the countdown isnt as quiet as the bbq.
pray hard.
x(

i really want to think happy thoughts.

when you have that bunch of crappy and fun-loving people beside you.
you just know you already got nothing else to ask for.
=)

hmm.
today is the 15th. 2 more days.
it marks the first year after i joined gv.
lolx. of course i no longer work there le la!
haha.

come to think of it.
i really missed the days alot.
be it getting scolded by the managers there.
or catching outside food.
there is only FUN FUN FUN.

i dont really consider that as working
because i am like enjoying myself all the time.
all those late nights and suppers at 201.
lolx.

arh well. i realli miss the gang alot.
no wonder michelle saes the 3 of us cant work together
cos we are simply too noisy.
=D

no more free movies. no more free drinks. no more fun.
=(

omg.
it has alredi been like...9 months since i left gv.
time really flies. so scary isnt it.
but its the fact.

anyway i am great becos i got to know a bunch of really nice people there.
patrick...junwei...isk...mich...yuying...fongmei...wow.
and a very long list followed.
haha!

didi !
merry xmas. u wan the fish out of the water ? LOL.
read your blog. u sound tired.
haha. u are not alone larhx.
i am tired as well too.
but i am not giving up !
so u cant too.

ben and jerry rawks !
=D

You Are Chubby Hubby Ice Cream

So there's more of you to love... a whole lot more!

What Flavor Ben and Jerry's Ice Cream Are You?

arhhx. here goes nothing. i am an ice cream. although i seriously duno what that flavour was. haha. just came upon this quizzy type of webby. and found this tub really cute. lolx. so there it is.

i am in school and the next lesson is like...freaking 3hrs away. omg. i really wan to run away ! but tests are arnd the corner.

arh well. juz stick to being a chubby hubby ice cream first. =)

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So be cheerful, laugh alot, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

the iGuardians guild video is out !
haha...so happy.
satisfaction !
=D

hmm.
christmas is coming.
i am alone again !
of course. not alone in the sense
as i still got my sox pee per to pei wo larhx.
as in i am single once more.

i realised my past relationships have never pass any seasonal celebrations.
hmm.
national day counted ?
lolx.

of course. this year there will still be a party held.
sabby and teng are organisers.
we just sit back and enjoy.
haha.

hmm.
ever felt that u have alot of things u want to say.
but it seems like alot of things are holding you back ?
honestly speaking, from then.
i still have alot of things i realised.
i cant make it to tell that person.

as in when i really thought i can tell that person something.
we are once separated by a big sea or a tall wall.
that person can never understand how i feel.
neither can i.
haiz.

probably. we are the most familiar strangers on earth now.

haha. i am more and more mysterious now.
=)
the person whom i am referring to. is not who u all think it is.