think happy thoughts.
yah.
thats what we should do when we feel sad.
but some people may think.
they dont even have happy thoughts before.
its all sad ones.
how to think positively
when there is only minus signs inside?

how can a heart feel so much pain
as though it has been tored apart.
or broken into pieces.
when logically, your heart is still intact inside.
and no physical pain has been deliberately made ?

such an internal organ inside.
can actually be greatly affected by external problems outside.
this is so magical. so unexplainable.
very profound.
x)

speaking of profound.
whahahax.
"the world is not beautiful; therefore it is."
cool. so its saying.
its the flaws that made the world better?
come to think of it.
hey it does make sense.

sometimes. mistakes do make things better.
if everyone is perfect.
it would be so boring.
sometimes.
we rather like a simple minded person than to like a person who pursues perfection all the time.

its raining heavily outside now.
by the way.
have you felt rain falling in your heart before ?
i did.
haha.
but just like the rain outside. it will stop.
someday i believe.
=)

i am broke.
seriously.
hahah.
the prince who turned into a frog.
happy ending !
lol. expected larhx.
but see so much also useless.
fairytales are not for me.
hahah. x)

went out with the gang to town yesterday.
shoppin larhz !
lol.
hg wana shop!
for his hip hop clothes.
=D

and gang poems.
omg.
i guessed only the 3 of us are enjoying ourselves ehx ?

school is starting soon.
whahahahx.
new modules. fcuk.
french. darn.
yeah. cant wait to explode the science labs again.
gas leak last sem.
the whole lot of us were evacuated.
wonder if anything funny is goin to happen again.

the words are still repeating itself inside.

sadistic crabb-ing.
sad to say.
its not made by cannibals. nor ommivores. or manslaughtering mankind.
lol. did i said way too serious?
ok. zhong hong guan and elmo did it.
went for crabbing yesterday. plus elmo's parents.
brought 10 crab nets and in the end we only caught 1 small one.
and it was like. we caught only one.
and we killed loads.
x(

zhong deflated hermits and crabs.
elmo had his pliers to take part in the bi-secting.
hong guan got his video on.
basically its just me mh and kw looking at them
destroying the nature.

and the worse part was.
the 3 of them murdered a catfish.
and the catfish is adorable.
BUT not at the part where his intestines exploded.
wad the hell sia. my catfish.
x(

but his death wasnt as worse as the horseshoe crab.
zhong blinded him with fire.
FIRE. omg.
and he was paralysed and dead for life.

now u can understand the real meaning of sadistic crabb-ing.
its darn gross and funny.
yuck.
4 words to describe our whole trip best.
back-to-the-nature.

oh ya.
elmo's daddy and mummy is so sweet.
one of the reason to convince me about love. hahah.
if everyone in love could be like wad they are.
i guess love really makes everything worthwhile.
=)

sentosaaaaaa!
whahahax.
enjoyed myself alot.
the usual people.
the usual ransacking at NTUC.
the usual sun-tanning.
the usual rough ball games.
the usual sun.
and fcuk.
the usual rain afterwards.
lolx.

but who cares.
the rain cant stop us.
but the wind does.
cos its so freaking cold.
hahax.

well well.
hope next time the sun stays on top all day.
we badly wan a tan.
x(

but the dinner's great.
cos its yummy.
=D

and i got french for my next sem's complimentary module.
omg.
when the only word i know was bonjour.
am i going to say good morning the whole day ?
lolx.

and i asked yong chye how did sentosa got its name.
his face was like -_-?
whahahax.
i seriously duno. thats why i ask.

on last thought. i was wondering.
which one was worse.
a promise broken.
or a lie told.
haiz.

i got minor sun burnt when i didnt even tan myself.
wads the problem ?
lolx.

=)

omg.
we are under-aged people.
but who cares.
lolx. first M-18 show in my lifetime.
deuce bigalow: the european gigolo.
x)

the whole cinema was full of "maturity".
putting in good terms.
we are the youngest there.
cos we arent even qualified.
lolx.

besides the movie.
we had an early breakfast.
never woke up dat early before.
but nevertheless. the 10 of us managed to woke up.
yummy. macs breakfast.
=D

till then.
maple is still patching.
fcuk. lolx.

god blessed me !
x)

i am so happi.
because i cleared everything!
including maths.
dat was a total nightmare.
but i still managed to scrape through.
miracles really happen.
because of the belief in it. =)

for other subs.
well. Bs and Cs.
but who cares.
think As are not for me.
whahahax.
especially in science and maths.

sseeennntttooosssaaa!
x)

actually, its only a few footsteps away between you and me. but yet i feel like the distance is so far that no matter how many steps i make, i can never reach you.

happy birthday to lynette.
lol. had fun at her chalet last night.
the food were great.
but where did the huge flower crab come from ?

and we played poker.
duhx. wad else. hahax.
and we are lazy to shuffle the cards.
so we juz flipped the cards over and picked our own.
think yx snatched kenneth's good cards away.
lol. and he was kicked by him in the end.

and i kept getting 2s. wahahahax.
before we went for her chalet.
i had a date!
lolx. with my beloved meihuey.
and we were broke.
seriously. x(
spending money indeed is my forte.

to YOU.
cheer up k ?
if he is meant to be yours.
he will be.
lets believe in time ok ?
it will tell everything i guess.
while in the meantime.
let yourself heal while u wait for him.

i want you to be happy.
x)

"all i want is to be with you".
this is what two people who loved one another hoped for.

"all i want is not to be separated from you."
this is what two people who are already in love wished for.

which one would u prefer if you have to choose between one of them only ?

i rather choose the second one. because i wouldnt bear to leave everything. sometimes more pain is brought to one another when two people are together.
if they are separated. i cant imagine how painful it is going to be. although i didnt experienced it myself before. the people beside me have already shown me so much of what i need to see, feel and know.

i cant imagine how painful it is. i cant imagine how painful you feel.
but if it isnt over love of the reason why you are crying every night.
i guess it should be other affairs of the heart thats affecting you so much.

u told me. we should let ourselves heal when we are wounded.
lets heal...together k ?
x)