sometimes, its a good idea to listen to what your heart has to say. it may give you the best answer you wanted. x)

good night.

x)
ask me.
wads it like to like a person ?
i will tell you.
sherilyn only believe in feelings more than love.
when you have feelings for that person. doesnt mean you like that person.
and when you like that person. doesnt mean you love that person.

someone said.
you do not like the person for who he/she is.
but for who you are when you are with him/her.
yarh.
they may all be related.
but their outcomes can be very different.

when you like a person. you doesnt have to be with him/her.
it doesnt take to be together to be together.
and sometimes. when you dont get together.
you will realise you will tend to hurt the person lesser.

one word sums all for this post.
contradicting.
x)

dedicated to the you-know-who someone who keeps shooting me on this topic.
(i'm shooting back ! hahax.)
perhaps u can never understand how i feel. because i dont even know it myself.
=)

yay-ness.
exams are over. wad more can a slacker ask for?
bless me. i wanna pass.
but. maths is a big problem.
hahahx. paper was easy.
but i didnt study ! so.
hahahx. complete my sentence then.

chalet coming up. heheh.
another chance to see my fellow nyp pee per.
woohoo. can get to see yuzy fiza fuchang and cyrus!
x)

cant believe one semester is over.
next semester.
organic chemistry! *screams*
alkanes and alkenes. ew.

its only till then i realised.
there are so many unhappy people in this earth.
its all broken bits and pieces in their heart.
actually its those who look exceptionally cheerful and happy outside.
have the most shattered heart inside.

adios. exams are over. heheh.
x) its just so cool.

actually there is still alot of things on my mind. and alot of things i wanted to say. but somehow i cant spell it all out. actually it doesnt need too much brain cells to figure out what i am thinking.

i used to love my clique so much. because i know they are like my siblings and elders that my parents cant afford to give me.
because they are the only ones i really know i can count on when i am outside all alone.

be it mugging for o levels together. or commit offences around the school. or having group outings to the town or beach together. even if singapore was a small boring island. nothing can stop us from having fun.

i think we are pretty surprised that we actually did alot of things that maybe many other teens of our age didnt do. because one whole chunk of us share the same mentality. we only think of the consequences after we did something wrong. but from another view, we learnt much more than others from the tears we shed and the bruises we exchanged.

when my mum knows about my clique. she just replied me with three words. havoc but united. hahax. ya. we are united. but united means as in the spirit of being together. or the minds are together too. we can be united even if we are separated into different schools...be it u are in a jc in the east or a poly in the west. lol.

my own definition of friends is you dont have to hang out so often...but as long as u regard one another as friends in your heart and sms or meet them once in a while, we can equally maintain this so called "long distance relationship". haha.

if we all said our group was not drifting apart, we could be lying to ourselves. maybe a smaller group was easier to maintain. but the more the merrier. who likes only 5 ppl going to sentosa together ?

meihuey was right. 'SOX' was only a name. its sort of like a tag, for easy recognition. if we are walking on the streets, friends juz nid to sae "eh SOX!"...instead of 'eh mh zx sherilyn sabby yeeteng...' and all other 10 names probably.

even if we removed whoever whoever from our group, does it mean we will treat them differently? i think everything will be the same. we will still hang out together...still go out together...its only some of them will not have the status and tshirt.

its because we had gone through too many good times together...thats why when bad times happen...we always take the easiest way out.

the reason why i still choose my group over my poly clique is not becos my poly frens are bad or wad. its just that they cant give me the ever so homely belonging in the group. i guess only that certain group can give me the real feeling i want...or shld i say we want. i hope we are a clique, a group, mayb a group name like 'SOX' to add some vibrant and sense of belonging...but when we are stripped off our status and everything. we are only this small group of people on earth who does everything together.

i love that group of people not becos they are in 'SOX'...but for who they are. without them. there is nothing called SOX at all. 'SOX' did not give me friendship or love i want. THEY did. the brothers and sisters in IT gave me.

sorry if i hurt anyone yesterday night. my tone may be impatient or bad but thats not exactly how i felt inside.

no one gives up on everyone, so i hope everyone also give up on no one.

x)i love u all!

but if anyone was removed from the group, i can understand the reasons behind...so dont feel affected by my blog! it is just another post of mine. x)

love is in the air ! x)
not for me of course...lol..but so many blogs contained love and love.
love. wad the hell was that?
ya. for someone who basically didnt really fall in love before.
of course she will tend to wonder wad exactly is this thing called love.
yarh larh. the her is me =D. hahahx.

my first time didnt go as smoothly as what i expected.
because it took place over some lame reasons.
ta-dah. FAILED.

ya. as wad he guessed. i am afraid of relationships.
i know everyone have to put down their fears, be brave, follow their hearts...and lastly. fall in love.
do i sound like some tomboy who hates relationships?

yah. i admit that was me last time. ya. i detest relationships to core.
cos i think that girls can live well without guys too.
true la. but now. come to think of it. loneliness needs company too. x)

sort of have this kind of thinking that. when there is a day you stead. there will be a day where you will break.
but i guess the process is much more important than the ending?
and some guy shoot me back.
he said. then why you still live when you will die someday ?
fcuk it.
he is right.
but.
u can choose not to stead. but u cant choose not to be given birth in this world.
x)

i admire people who follow their feelings and heart. even if the whole world is against them.
i admire people who dares to try and not afraid to be hurt in the end.
i admire people who go for their heart even if the other party was not the same race as them.
i admire people who defies reality and fall for people of their sex.
i admire people especially girls who dare to say "i like you" to the guy they like.
i admire people who can pick themselves up even when they fall.

i can never be one of them.
cos they are brave and are true believers of love.
me ?
lets wait and see.
for the day to come.
whahahax.
x)

fcuk it. tagboard is down. whahahahx.
x)
the diploma in mugging and scraping your way thru exams is here.
self created by me. me. and me. hahahx.

mayb i shld introduce the diploma in singlehood technology as well.
cos teng says everyone is talking about love.
heheh.

i juz realised another scary dark side of mankind.
haiz.
who doesnt have a dark side ?
come on. no one is perfect.

u tell lies and weave stories to cover up for your mistake.
u hide the truth and fabricate excuses in hoping that everyone will be taken in.
wadever it is. as long as u are in the wrong. your reasons. even if its true. will all be deemed as excuses.

who can really understand that lies are actually plain shortcomings of a person?
or the reasons they give are really the truth and not excuses ?

when it comes to the end, its still their own privacy. their own rights.
we can do nothin either.

when u tell a lie. u need 10 more lies to continue deceiving.
this is reality.

and to avoid misunderstandings from happening.
its juz wad i see from the cruel side of people.
nothing got to do with anyone.

because i doubt my clique has got this kind of species yet.
x) goodness gracious.

mug. mug. mug. back to mugging.
haiz.
bless me x)

happy birthday jason.
hope u and nana like the small tiny cake that me and moon "made".
yeah. lolx. and the plastic is meant to be removed after u finished everything.
btw. the cave sucks rite.
beng and i are counting down to the finishing of the movie.
we are bored ppl. x)

material science down. went to school to hand in the final report.
the exam papers was hard. if u didnt study.
and i didnt.
received the fatality call from inorganic lecturer. goner sia. wtf.

this week is my study week. but still floating in the holiday mood.
the rest of the polys have finished their exams. and i am still stuck.
bless me. i juz sneezed.

x( i decided.

fcuk.

oei.
happi birthday.
whahahahx.
dont sae dont haf. x)

fcuk. exams are arnd the corner. wad haf she done. close to nothing.
sem project down. project engine drwg down. pd down.
left with mat science, inorgan, biochem and yuck. maths.
bless her to complete this sem.
all she wans is a pass.

tired and worn out. fatality. lolx.
celebrated jo's birthday at fisherman's yesterday.
thanx alot moon. for bringing him there.
though he still suspected.
hate u la jo. so smart for fcuk. whahahahx.
didnt drink this time round. opted for something light.
strawberry cheese cake. great.

member's bbq at mrs tan house the day before.
alot of catching up to do.
missed secondary school days.
who dont ? lolx.
but it was still nice reminiscencing everything under the moonlight on the swing.
plus a drizzle. wth.
great. realised time is passing so fast.
i cant catch up. soon to be i guess.
fear.

i will never leave
even it takes forever to heal
no matter how hard
you try to chase me away

fcuk la.
corrosion science report.
enough of fantasies.
time to be back to the reality.

Your IQ Is 95

Your Logical Intelligence is Above Average Your Verbal Intelligence is Above Average Your Mathematical Intelligence is Above Average Your General Knowledge is Average

A Quick and Dirty IQ Test

urghh! arghh ! yuck ! stuck in school now.

doing this fcuking online survey with 2 other classmates.
juz the 3 of us plus the lecturer. whahahax. but cant download anything in this computer. wth. lolx. cant gain any access to the banned sites.

maths stinks. inorganic chemistry sucks. hahahx. stil got a test coming on later at LTQ2. haizzz. juz did my project engine drawing test juz now. cos due to too much ponning for dat lesson. ended up drawing more like an art piece den d&T drawing. whahahahx. ever seen isometric drawings with sketches, effects and shades ? LOL.

lastly. maths suck. hahahx.

X)

lolx. its teacher's day today. and somehow its different from last time. its used to be always concert and half days and alot of noise and buzz arnd the school. yeah. now in a another environment things tend to change.

went back to east view yesterday. fcuking hell. hahahx. only allowed to enter the school at 11. plus reporting to the guards is compulsory. totally pissed. plus the hot weather. urghh.

secondary school rawks the most ! whahahax. Os. so wad. we dont give a damn. juz concentrate on fun and more fun will do. wild is wad describes one whole grp of us best. lolx.

back to poly school life. 3 months plus in the new school. whahahahs. learnt many shyt and yarh. u name it. basically i am still like a ship lost in the big ocean. at least it isnt that bad like last time. some people juz made my life got better. hahahx.

went out with them juz now. all i can say. they are a package of crap and nonsense. same trait as me. whahahahx. pon maths lesson to go town. wth. but the maths lesson is pathetic aso la. other classes in same programme pon as well. so basically not much ppl attended.

and they all big bag small bag went home. they all live in the west. i am the only one in the east. helped kuan long bargained stuff like hell sia. hahahx. we made the shopkeeper veri lan lan. wad to do. lolx. shiyang and CY got their shirt. tot someone say wana buy "newton" horx.... =X

putting my brain and mind to do it. this may be the last thing i can do for u.

i am water !! hahahahx. =)