drowned in the sea of maths. who da hell invented A maths ?

term break = study break. tis shld be the correct term. but in my case, term break = eat sleep play and slack. lol. dowan to fail also cannot le. maths and science are foreign subjects to me. they understand me. but i dont understand them. lol. sad to say hor.

anyway juz wanna say. my blog only speak my words, vent my anger, share my experience, lament my sadness and says my day. its not exactly into group dynamics or indirect speech to anybody concerned. so...lol.

lol. hm ya. i realised someting pretty common now. looks like more and more people are looking on the dark side of life. i duno y but maybe they have realli suffered alot for these years. and the knots in their hearts seemed too hard to be untied anymore. and normali. it happens over love and family.

i know love do hurt alot of people. but as a conclusion. love should be a happy thing. normally love dat results in depression and suicidal thoughts and ruined lives isnt deemed fit to be called love at all. obsession and over-persistent shld be more like it. perhaps i didnt haf the experience so i duno how sad could it be. but by seeing so many friends being hurt frm tis has convinced me dat love can be happy. so can it be devastating too. there are always two sides to everything.

maybe the thinking of "letting her go is the best i can do for that person" or "if she is happy den i am happy too" could be signs of running away. but now i rather think dat. there is realli nothing else u can do besides taking this path.

who says love must be between guys and girls ? guys can like guys too...so can girls. but y does he mix up the two feelings together? love is not mutated between a girl and a guy. as wad it may seems, i still wan u to like girls. insecurity is wad u seek from her. if u keep tinking about the insecured feeling. the emotional barrier wont overcome. love...like...admire...crush...infatuation...are all different feelings towards a person. wads most important is to differentiate between dem. dont brood over the failed marriage and violence between ur dad and mum. maybe their fates are bind like tis alrdi.

to me. i see the one who hurt me the most, would be the one i love most.

we can only accompany u untie ur knots one by one. i know some has alrdi become dead knots alrdi. but u are the only person who can do it...

-if we can control our hearts or minds not to love and recall dat person, y cant we even control our tears from running out everytime we tink of them ?

woohoo ! lol. finally the jerseys came. on the day of the captain's ball competition itself. fiza and yuz skipped their thinking skills lesson to find dat guy who got lost in our school. wad the. haha. after searching arnd for 30 mins. still MIA. lol. den andre and me went arnd to find dat guy as well. onli came to noe dat he was juz outside food juction. cant he say where he is ? lol. sick man. got the jersey. grey grey grey ! with white wordings. one word. cool. haha. personalised with our names. yay-ness man. went off to change. and poor adrian. his name was printed wrongly as adnan. new and onli tamil guy in our class ? whahaha.

went to the sports hall at the other far end. goin to play captain's ball in a. basketball court ? ya i noe. kinda out of place rite ? anyway freshies from 0505 played first with year 2 students. lost. den came our class, competing with 0502. we won ! lol. isaiah and "adnan" played veri well. ok la. sha da ge played well too. our goalie ! whahaha. we shouted and scream at every goal. crazy ppl. yeah. haha. but the second round we played with year 2. the referee was their good fren. and in the end. actualli is 17-16. the referee cheated. fcuk. haha. he said it was a tie. in da end. we lost in the tie breaker. lol. but we werent disappointed. cos we tried our best ma. hehe. 0506 which is our class. were the onli year one's in the finals. haha. =D

went to song de's birthday yesterday. went to meet song de and mokeong earlier. his actual bdae is today de. lol. dinner at marche. not every ex lehx. cos the 5 girls shared. in da end onli each of us 8 bucks. even cheaper den marina. marche reali like a restaurant in a market lorh. haha. after dat we went to marina square to play billard. while moon and mh waited 1 hr for a 9 feet table. me went off earlier. to meet my daddy at raffles conventional. he got a company function dere. a ride home ! lol.

today is song de bdae and yesterday is ben didi de birthdae. happy birthdae and good game have fun. haha. a code our class made. here's another. byebye and fcuk off. i noe its crude but look on the inner side ! haha. term break finally came. study time. YUCK. oh ya. sori skye. for the suilkenstein. lol.

-if you cant even make yourself happy, how are you going to give the person you love happiness ?

lol. another week has passed by le. uh oh. term break coming le. but it isnt good news for me. cuz term week. is actually more of a study week. ee. anyway. got one big report from material science. and many reports too. haizz. and common tests for the upcoming week after the one week "holiday". wad a definition for holiday. haha. juz hope dere is enough time. hope i can still meet up with my darlings to go out together. lol.

hm. wads for the week huh. mh they all juz finished their term break. back to school again! lol. yeah. looks like tis yr end we are heading for malaysia. pray hard pray hard. hope everyone can make it. hm. ya. went for gv family day with hong guan and gang. haha. movie screening is. charlie and the chocolate factory. came to realise dat the movie wasnt wad i anticipated. lol. but it was still interesting and cute. i didnt mention it was very nice. oops. haha. ok la. tis month round, its plaza singapura. met dem at control station. informed patrick and yuying as well. haha. caught up quite alot with dem. lol. miss those fun kiddos alot. tis time round. starfish isnt late ! so wad. last time late means late liao. hahah.

came up with a class tee ! erm. more like a class jersey i guess. whahaha. sporty people makes up one sporty class. lester ! stop flooding the msn! shit it man. tml still got AutoCad test. wth i doin here ? haha. suan le. i failed one module's test le. i am the most slack in my class now. haha. die le die le.

anyway. its shopping time tml. woohoo. yayness. hahaha. wakakaka. hope its ready alrdi. =)

the more we get together, together, together...the more we get together...
would it be the merrier will be ?

lol. tis is going to be long. can say that it hasnt been happening for the past few weeks. and 3 days straight of excitement. whahaha. anyway lets start on da first. saturday. hm. we went to shop for jojo's present. at orchard. teng sabby pris and me. walked around. went far east. cineleisure. taka. heeren. was intending to buy her a watch. but we cant find a suitable one fer her. so we decided on shoes. went to the missy elliot shop and found this very nice pair of blue shoes for her. fits just well for our gmh. haha. orchard was pretty happening dat day. there is tis little guy buskering. he played the drums and he was onli 6 yrs old. best part was. he was veri good. and cute too ! lol. too bad la. he too young le. age gap age gap. haha. there is aso tis dancing competition. states that winner walks away with an mp3. a caucasian girl won. there is tis sot sot de dance like a crazy man lidat. oops. oh ya. spotted quite tis cute guy who looks like toro. gawd. told sabby and she deliberately made a detour to look at him. final verdict. YA he is cute. LOL. hahah. anyway the day ended with plans to "torture" meihuey. lol. =P

sunday is a sun-day and a sunny day. the sun was damn hot. hg me and pris went to harbourfront first. to prepare the games. we gave mh an idea dat we not going for the trip. sorri ! lol. yup. da 3 of us went to yakun's replica, wang jiao, to eat breakfast. the whole shop got attitude problem. and we made a mess out of our leftovers. crumps and milo and eggs all over the table. show us attitude ? heheh. back to sentosa. wow. hot. and crowded. many ppl there. haha. we board the bus to palawan beach and started digging holes and putting "punishments and forfeits" into it. some in the end was washed away. nevertheless, luckily the lipstick was stil intact. mh had to kiss all the girls and one guy. the lucky guy. elmo! lol. fun sia. mom and son. and one part was mh had to find 3 cute guys' number and take foto with dem. and the guys were reali cute ! k larh. most of them. the first one was gentleman. second was cute. third one was nerdily cute. lol. we said it was mh's happiest day. take fotos with so many cute ppl. woohoo. haha. and we played water. (as usual.) haha. and played tug of war ! with another bunch of people. they smoke. yuck. haha. tug of war. last tym i played was like, duno how many yrs ago in primary school? lol. needless to day. we won! lol. yong chye was the first man and hong guan was the last. they not bad hor. power. hahah. so farnie. the day was not veri ideal for sun-tanning though, cos the rain keep stopping and coming. after dat we went to bedok for zhu chao, and we went home after dat. while some of us to the arcade.

monday. totally superstar ! moon got the tix and den we met at mediacorp at arnd 5.45pm. waited at the reception for 15 mins. and went into a lift which cant go up or down. lol. the fans were crazy. keep screaming. yexiang. the joker. keep cracking jokes along the day. we brought bread along to eat. lol. the show finally start its recording at arnd 7. which was actualli scheduled at 6. saw the hosts. the judges. the contestants. oh gawd. haha. sebastian and hagen was cute. and their cheers (esp hagen's) was abit lame. but he got alot of supporters anyway. as all of us are hungry. we didnt stay for the female's recording part. we went bedok for dinner. and at the hawker centre. yx made too much crappy jokes dat zx me and mh were laughing madly. lol.

haha. went studying with them yesterday at macs. at last, derivatives ! whahaha. after dat, we went to zx house for dinner. her mum cooks well. haha. we went home at arnd 11, and had conference. the first ting mh was joined back to the conversation, we sang happi birthdae to her! haha. moon and yx both sae it was their ideas. haha. duno ? lol. had a great weekend. hope there are more to come. heheh. =)

happy 17th birthday mh !

-i guess i should treat that as a dream. because i always wake up with nothing.
see you around. =)

new face! i wan a new face for my blog. whahaha. schooling is fun. tiring. oh well. dats y i didnt blog. term tests for tis whole week. still a few more to come next week. lol. science and maths are driving me nuts. realised someting farnie. as u get older. the maths u learn. has lesser numbers and more alphabets. mathematicians are sickos. haha. kw juz started school bout 2 weeks ago. told me his school was pretty okay. but almost all the lectures his class is slping. lol. oh well. he joined dragon boat too. haha. trend ehs ? everyone is so into db.

hmm. went for studying with mh they all. at the airport. haha. i know the max hrs i can study is 3 hrs. and i stress its the max. or shld u say. 2 hrs alrdi make me dizzy liao. haha. i am not the piece of ingredient for studying. u can translate it to chinese yourself. kw yc and moon went to apply for a job at gv. kw alrdi got in. guess time to spend together is getting lesser. haha. like now. we hardly blog. or one entry per month or someting. last time. u can read new posts everyday. lol. tis is wad we call life ba ? haha. inevitable changes are taking place around me. so scary. but wad to do ? anyway. going to sentosa tis sunday. hope everything turns well. ends well. may the sun co operate ? haha.

went for fongmei's birthday party last sunday. at marina south. hong guan and i bought a cake for her. in the end. we came to realise dat she hasnt got a birthday cake since she got into primary school. well well at last her 19th birthday she got a cake to make a wish on ! lol. miss her and the rest of the gang alot. used to be so havoc in gv. haha. and the soup buddy fongmei cooked for us at marina was so... SALTY. u cant b a chef fongmei. ppl are going to have kidney failure. lol. catched up quite alot with dem. and learnt a new lame joke from weeleong. and i keep asking my classmates abt it. i suppose i am driving them nuts too. haha.

oh ya. talentime yesterday evening. at the auditorium. skye joined and he sang tong hua. he was very nervous at ferst. but calm down at the end and sang the entire song smoothly. haha. the talentime has got year 2s and year 3s seniors joining. they sing pretty well. and the drama also. lol. iron ladies and madagascar. oh i like to move it move it. LOL. and there was buffet afterwards. the food was simply. undescribable. well. tink on the gd side. i had to take 3 servings of everything. cos itz damn nice lorh. whahaha. next week is SCL's captain's ball tournament. the inter-class debating aso comin. yay-ness. happening sia. loving my school more and more le. and the food in nyp is simply paradise ! lol. food food food. i love food. haha! explains my big fat bulging stomach. gawd. call that lipid-bilayers. triglycerides. polysaccarides. dey are all different kinds of FAT and CARBO in body. yuck.

lastly. reports suck.

=)i wanna be the reason of that smile on your face.